Here's to a new beginning

he was so depressed  cause he failed 23rd time  in bank job interview . his blood red face was fully covered with sweat and tears, handing the result he was thinking about poison or hanging. 

suddenly the bell rang, he was so lost in thinking that he couldn't hear the bell at once. 

when he realised that someone is at the door ,next moment he stood and went to the stairs. 

his foot was stuck in the carpet

he was in such a hurry that he lost balance.  

 the right knee touched the first step of stairs,then left elbow smashed with stairs railing and in the end  he felt unconscious with head covered with blood.

"he saw shalini crying on his left side. all relatives  were gathered in his dining hall.

tanu anty saying , that it is so young age to die , what will happen to her after him."

i raised my lashes, i am in a general ward, feet  are alright , elbow is broken, head is covered with bandages.

"i survived an accident!!!!  and i am still alive!?????"

shalini is sitting on left chair and watching me with her swollen eyes. 

she started, you know i never loved you for your looks and bright future, but because of your loving heart. next time if you struggle, i will struggle with you. it was the first confession of love, she ever made.

he smiled with sparkling eyes and thought , "here's to a new beginning!"

My diary 13/09/2020

 what is main goal of life, i really can't understand.

it is a critical time era for everyone (who is unemployed)

specially for girls, this pandemic is a cruel time cause there are so many hurdles for their carrier operations.

 

there is a slite relief that we can enjoy to be in our home.

but there is also a confusing situation of being homely & carelessness.

survival is the earnest aid in this time ,you compare yourself with the office going working girls & sigh for the future. 

New added routine

 oh my god, i really being crazy these days.

i was scared to go alone for a walk . 

when i reached to stadium,  i saw a girl who was heading to the Prithviraj hill , i suddenly asked her to accompany her and she noded , 

we started the walk with a good speed. she had a great speed,  when we reached to the steps i was really felt dying because of pain. we took approx 35 minutes to reach the gate.

 ,though i can still feel the pain in my feet , that was the  winning the war feeling.

the view was calming and soul soothing , that place was all covered by peaking hills , beautiful sunset was charmingly glowing.

i felt breez in my heart, good moment in madness days. loved it.

#Influencers

 Really they don't mind what they are sharing in their videos. They dare to show every aspect of mind. 

 Social media is meant to be social. But, it is also manipulated by the so called #influencers". 

Some of them never give up to tease the emotions of some persons. They hurt them this much that the person try or commit suicide.  

That person undergoes very heavy and expensive treatments, which can fell because the continuation of the incident.

"Thanks to the social media and YouTubers" if the content is hided and wiped from the media they repload the content again and again. 

criteria should be placed in the virtual things too.

BTS ADDICTION

 you won't believe if i tell you that i am addicted to BTS songs .but seriously I feel that I am addicted to it. goshhh.......

BTS a big k- pop brand & group that sings, choreograph, makes music by own self.

every character give an unconditional pleaser by giving their presence to the videos. 

vocalist's low & high tones are mind blowing.

rappers do there work with perfection.

everything is up to next level.

each and every member of this group has his own abilities. there's no replacement can be done to the members.

now a days,

i start my mornings with bts songs , do house chores with bts songs and before sleeping i like to listen bts songs. 

it works like stress reliever .it kills the negative thoughts in my mind and gives energy to break the limits in a positive way. like i am afraid to socialise , but i recently joined gym,  

i am trying to regain inner motivation.

gathering old good memories,. 

in short recollecting inner beauty.  

stay gold 

 

oh , i forgot one thing today is jimin's birthday.

so HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIMIN 

My diary(evening walk thoughts at day time)

 Yes, i usually go for a walk with chhotu (my younger brother) after evening meal 

But now a days i am feeling that i am controlling his behaviour,priorities,his freedom.

So i decided to make him free from my side of responsibilities.

Probably it'll take few days , but it have to be done by me,previously.

Needless, i want to focus on my job preparation. I have to make a time table,which i can follow up.

I know i am suffering from several problems like health issues,  lack of concentration ,motivation, confidence. 

But i also know that i can handle the whole things by my left hand.

Oops, overconfidence.

I forgot that i am a khabbu.(left handy)

Aain-e-arzoo

 

Har bar guzar jate he uske samne se,  aaj thahar ke ek bar zara khud ko sanwar to le. 

Aaj jab aapko dekha to ye khayal aaya , kitne dino se aaina nahi dekha he. 

Khata ho gayi najarandaz karna . ru-b-ru hue to nazar hi nahi mila pa rahe

Gardish ke tare bhi sochte honge, chalo hum se badh kar bhi ek makhol aaya he.

Jindgi chinar ki pattiyon se ho chali he, waqt-be-waqt patte girte chale ja rahe he. 

Aasman ki aarzoo liye zameen pe chalte he.ye raste bhi har roz badalte he.

Mosam ke palatwar to har saal hote he,.  ab to aadat si ho chali he in badlawo ki .

Yaddasht ki rukhsati kuch is tarah havi he, roj kuch yad karte he ,roj kuch bhool jate he.

ONLINE FRAUD

Hello viewers and readers ,

I have tip downed a new topic about present scenario. Hope you'll like it.

From the birth of a human,decent  people always try to make himself more honest and reliable, so other person can trust them, make them their friends. 

Parents always teach their children truthfulness and kindness.

But, now a days , the scenario is too changed! There are lots of things and timepieces when our mind loose the stability.

In a queue, there are more and more bad things like smuggling, theft, scams and online scams and frauds.

In todays ,the online fraudulent started new techniques 

1  if you are searching for jobs,you obviously upload your resume or c.v. to various websites.  There is a vulnerability of the document that they can see the information about you there. They take your number and call you and give you a great job proposal which you can't reject .they ask you do you wanna give interview. If yes then YOU HAVE TO GIVE PROCESSING CHARGES .

2 in terms of bank information, there are lot of things we don't know how to handle , like you have a call of bank that your account is blocked because of lack of contact information,they are sending you OTP. So you have to send the otp to them, 

So you send the otp to them and get the bank account EXEMPT OR DROWNED.

Although there is too many kinds of online fraud, but i actually faced this two types of fraud and HANDLED them wisely.  Tell me about your experiences about ONLINE FRAUD. 

Philophobia

 When i was in teenage, i never thought that someone will make me feel about my feelings, instead of knowing about love and affection, i was always the person who want to study more and more.

Then I made my Facebook account in 2012,a big mistake. Every single person want to tied up himself with someone.

Some person also proposes on Facebook.

Whenever someone proposed me,i blocked him. I felt terrible every single time, when someone want to chat with me or date me.

I was feeling meaningless for the entire cycle,Chat ,Proposal receiving, Decline, BLOCK 

I hadn't and haven't any job because i can't face anyone, i felt shattered wherever i faced interviews.

After so many years i got the reason behind my this behaviour. I am still single because I am  PHILOPHOBIC